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Well, I’m not exactly 27 years old ( my birthday’s on May). Time flies, and I just realised it today that it flies in supersonic speed.

I remembered that I was one of those guys that stand in front of our classroom and play “secu”(Security)… It’s basically grabbing a random classmate, then take off his pants… Yeah, I know, it’s stupid, but it was fun and no one really got mad.

Then, puff… I remembered going to Cherating with my uni-mates, without even a proper planning, didn’t even know how to go there even when we reach Kuantan, didn’t know where to stay… We just talked about it, everyone agreed, next day in the morning, we’re off to Cherating…

Again, puff… I’m like what I saw in the movie 10 years ago, after a tiring day in work. Come back, had dinner, play with little Joel, then rock him to sleep…

And while rocking him, I looked at him, and I looked at my father… And I was thinking, I was like Joel, so innocent…. And I will be like my father, losing hair, helping Joel to take care of his baby, and grumbling this and that…

I’m a normal man, in a normal life… I always hoped that my life will be full of adventure, just like the main cast in most of the movie, when I was young… But to be a normal man, in a normal life is the greatest gift to me… I believe that to live a normal life and to be able to appreciate every thing around you is the key to a happy life, just don’t ignore the people around you and take them for granted.

It’s ok to live a normal life, just don’t live life normally…

As everyone knows, this Edison thing is going wild. It’s such a big deal now, coz everywhere I go, everyone I meet, they’ll talk about how many pictures they have in their handphone. It’s like a competition now.

But this should be something personal, the only person to blame is the person that distribute these photos and videos. I guess it’s because of their fame, they make money out of their fame.

It’s see, if those photos are Edison and some ‘unknown’ chicks, I don’t think this will be as hot as it is now. It’s because it involved someone very famous, someone married with a son, and someone that is going to get married.

I’ve even heard that some gangster in Taiwan is ‘buying’ Edison’s hand. But that’s not even his fault in the beginning, it’s both parties. If he is the only one that’s wrong, then charge him with rape.

Edison is portrait as a ‘wild thing’ all along, that’s why he is forgiven by public soon after he released his ‘apology video’. But not Ah Gil, she portrait herself as a ‘clean’ idol, deceived the public. That’s what makes people so mad about.

Let’s drag further back, remember our ex-health minister? He too is not forgiven by public, that is because he portrait himself as a kind and responsible politician. But how come Paris Hilton is easily forgiven and her becomes more famous after her sex video was ‘flying’ on the internet.

Whatever the motive is, it worked for some and it worked against some. But the most pityful party that we should look at is the victim’s family members. Pity on them for they are being taunt and critic for something they didn’t even do.

"I’m Back". That has 2 meaning, the 1st one means I’m back at my home, Sabah, for good. The other one simply means I’m back in this blog. Well, I haven’t been updating my blogs for quite some times now. Yeah, you heard it, same old reason, no time…

But I really not free le, I keep on moving since 25th November last year, 1st move out of Penang to Alor Setar, then help out in my brother in law’s wedding, then move out of Alor Setar on 24th December, to KL, attend a friend’s wedding, then have to arrange my doggie’s ‘passport’… then move to KK on 3rd Jan 2008.

It’s not until now that I have a little bit of idea what I want to do here.

Enough of the past, now let’s talk about future. It’s 1.43am now, can’t sleep nicely, so I decided to update my blog. Here’s why, I’m still not sure what kinda business I wanna do, or should I say what kinda business I can do. If I have a million with me now, maybe that’s not a problem at all… But there are so many ppl out there that start something out of nothing, now that’s what I call successful.

The main reason is that there’s only 2 more months. 2 more months and our baby will due. Will I faint in the delivery room? How to bath a baby? Drink what milk powder ah? How to bring up a child? How to protect them from the beast out there? Yeah, I’m thinking too much… But that’s only down to the fact that I’m very excited about this.

Anyway, will try my best to lead as example. Show my child how to face the world out there. Cao, see ya.

Like the title shows, I’m actually ’sai meng’… hahaha… Life’s perfect for me…  Just got married with my dream girl, going back to KK, and going to be a dad soon…

I remember I used to wake up in the morning, didn’t know what I want to do, didn’t have anything to look forward to… Just don’t feel anything, not feeling happy, nor feeling sad… Just wake up waiting for sunset… Then go to sleep waiting for sunrise…

There were times I am worried about my future, which university I wanted to go, what course I wanted to take, who will I be…

I still remember that during my secondary school days, I always looking forward to study in University, I didn’t believe when ppl told me secondary school days were the best days of our life…

Then I remember, during my university days, I always look forward to working life, and I didn’t believe when ppl told me university days were the best days of our life…

I’m still doing the same thing now like what I did before… Wake up in morning, sleep at night, just that instead of going for classes, I go to work…

I’m happier than ever, not because of "A series of fortunate events" that happen to me… Most importantly, it’s because I’ve learn to be contented to life… Content to what I have… Appreciate every moment of my life and live life to the fullest…

So, when ppl ask me, "When is you happiest moment of your life?" I will tell them that my happiest moment of my life is "now"… "Now", as in not the moment when I write this… "Now", as in the present now, as in the moment I’m living in…

I didn’t update this blog for quite some time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t write blog anymore. I’ve been updating other blog… But when I have something to comment, I will still update in this blog…

Well, when SyinNi and I got married, all of our friends are very happy for us. For most of our friends, they know us from the day SyinNi and I start dating each other… So our wedding means a lot as they witness our journey from courtship to marriage…

So, what about the idea of a kid calling you uncle and auntie? Does that feel nice to you??? Or does that makes you feel older??? Anyway, you guys, all of you out there, you are no more young fella… Admit it, you are now uncle and auntie…

Oh, and if you don’t get it what I meant, try visit my new blog…

http://liltan.blogspot.com

It’s really fascinating how efficient ppl can get nowadays, as soon as I posted a blog, even before I can let my wife know, there are already some people reading my blog… Wow…. Amazing~~~

The funny thing is, I didn’t realise that there are ‘players’ out there that will read my blog, coz I always post entry on private matter and I seldom see ppl post comment. Hehehe, guess there’r lotsa 8 gong 8 po out there that is a ‘read and run players’ too… Puiii~~~ don’t say ppl, I also one kind… hahaha…

Anyway, I will fully utilise this curiosity of yours and post anything that I want to tell the world… so, stay tune…

There’s a mixture of sad, sympathy and angry today.

Let’s talk about the sad, pity and angry feelings, 1 by 1.

I called my friend in US (Eric) yesterday, he told me a sad news, that one of our secondary schoolmate died of brain cancer at the age of 26. Her name is Jiwa, a malay friend that studied with us in the same school for 3 yrs only, after that she went to other school. When I posted a blog (title: "My next chapter in life") saying that I’m going to get married, she posted a reply saying that I must invite her to my wedding. But she died this year sometime in April.

During my drive back, while listening to the news on radio, it came a sad news, 20 ppl died on a bus crash at Bkt Gantang. I really sympathise those victims, and it doesn’t help reading the newspaper today that a husband and his pregnant wife died in that crash, the reason they are in that bus is because the husband wanted to accompany his pregnant wife to her hometown to deliver their baby. So, I guess that brings the death toll to 21 ppl to be precise. What is suppose to be a sweet moment turns sour, in fact turns bitter.

Ok, that’s life. Face it. Life is fragile, you can get diceases or involved in an accident anytime. People are selfish, they make decision based on their best benefit. So, people out there, love your life, every moment of it, appreciate your love one for they make you feel wanted, thank your hate one for they show you how to be patient. Whatever it is that happen to you, how worse can it be? You’ll get pass that, and you’ll look back saying that it’s just a small matter. Some people just wish to trade your hardship and life with their no-worries and soon-to-die. Love and peace~~~~

Whenever something is always available, people take for granted.

Every night we would kiss each other goodnight, greet each other "Sweet Dreams", tell each other "Love you" before we go to sleep, even if we are distance apart, we would call or text each other to practise our ‘norm’.

5 and a half years, without fail (except occasions when we quarrel) we would kiss each other before we go to sleep, but recently I found myself starting to take this for granted. I’ve started to take this as a normal practise just like most people must brush their teeth before going to sleep.  I realise that I took this simple but pleasing goodnight kiss for granted, and I appreaciate this simple kiss more than ever.

Now, not only I appreciate the goodnight kiss more, I will kiss you in the morning too. Because you are often moody if you don’t have a good sleep or don’t have enough sleep, I want to make your day by a simple good morning kiss too.

Well, it’s kinda weird reading the Namewee "Negarakuku" news lately, the government is accusing Namewee for disrespectful to our national anthem, "Negaraku". But Namewee insisted that he started from musical point of view. So, it shows same issue, different opinion.

Same goes to communication between a man and a woman. Have you ever heard of the phrase, "Men come from Mars, women come from Venus."

When women talk, they just want to be listened, but men want to provide solution. This is where conflig begins if you do not understand the logical behind. When woman talks, she just want you to listen, if man asks questions or interupt to give comment, then she will think that you are not listening. The other way round, when man talks, he wants you to ask more, to give comment or opinion, else, he will think that you are not listening.

Besides that, the defination of certain word also irritates both sexs. 1 example, faithfulness. When men say they are faithful, it actually has a more ‘physical’ meaning, like, kissing, hugging or holding hands. When women talk about faithfulness, most of the time, it has a more ‘mental’ meaning. Men don’t regard yum cha with female friends alone, or talking to female in a flirting manner as unfaithful.

Every couple has different uncommon ground, and I’m giving the example after listening to few friends, reading, and observation. So, understand your men or women, know what the silence or the questions means.

After re-reading my post, I found out that some might think that I wrote this blog after a quarrel with my wife… Nonono, we are fine… I’m writing this blog merely from what I observed, read, heard and know.

Anyway, another point to add, Namewee finally asked to attend a court hearing… He who make music has to face the music… That’s the world, different point of view…

My wedding day is just 1 month away from now. Today, someone ask me, what if you see someone that is more beautiful, more understanding, more ’suit’ to me…. What he means was "Love at 1st sight"…

I then said that I will not love someone at 1st sight… and it’s impossible to know someone at 1st sight… Again, he throws me another question, "Do yo know what love at 1st sight means?"… Hahaha, of course I know… I then ask him back, "Do you know what "sight" means??"…

When you say you’r in love at 1st sight, you are basically telling others that you love someone because she’s beautiful. Of course, the very basic fundamental element to start a relationship is "Attraction"… For guys, I would say, mostly are based on the physical appearance… Well, for girls, I’m not sure… Mayb you can post a comment here.

Well, that doesn’t seems to be "Love at 1st sight" for me. As mentioned before, my defination for love is "deeeeep"… To be frank, my wife and I nv qualified to say that we love each other at 1st sight. I would say, I was attracted by her physical appearance, (she is a beautiful chick though)…. That is not love, but as time goes by, and we spent every moment together, sharing every thoughts and moment… Our love grows…

SyinNi always tell me that I know her very well, and I treat her very well… But I always said, I want to know you more and I want to do more for you… The idea if to have a smalller me and a bigger you… (ok, I know I’m repeating myself)…

The bottom line is that I’m not a believer to Love at 1st sight, and there’ll be no one to replace SyinNi’s place in my heart.